Craig called our senator yesterday and was told they would call him back today. Nothing. He also emailed an old family friend who has connections in high places. Still nothing. Our clearance paperwork was sent to Georgia AGAIN today. Still nothing.
When we realized a month ago that things were moving slower than we expected in this part of the home study I was okay with it. I was at peace with whatever would happen knowing that we were doing all we could do. I was irritated, but only for a few minutes. It really didn't bother me.
Out of nowhere I felt this incredible need to talk to our social worker and see where things stood. Upon finding out that we are no closer to getting our state clearances than we were a month ago, I lost it. I was close to tears all day. The more I prayed for peace over the timing of the situation, the more and more I felt unrest. The more I prayed for patience the more urgency I felt. For some reason I can't place my finger on I keep having this nagging feeling that we need to GET THIS DONE. It's just an instinct inside me that wasn't there three days ago. It came out of the blue and it came strong. I don't have any idea what's going on. I have fleeting thoughts that there are new or worse problems with Miah's health. I have fleeting thoughts that the court system in her country might change and we need to beat the system. I have fleeting thoughts that something is going to strike our family and that for some reason this stage needs to be done before that happens. It's strange. I CANNOT get the situation out of my mind. The last 24+ hours I've been praying for the safety of Miah and our family and the speediness of the people running our clearances. I've been praying that God's will be done and that He be glorified in every stage of our lives.
After mentioning this feeling of urgency and unrest to our friends who are adopting, our case worker with CHI emailed our agency in Miah's country and has asked them to go check on Miah and give us an update. Praise God! Knowledge is power and we're about to know how Miah's doing NOW. And then I will either know to pray like crazy for her health or to relax and pray like crazy for our home study. :)
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